And it's not that I am jealous and it's not that I am mad or upset its that he treats her so different them he treats me. He take pictures and drinks and is more himself with her then I feel he will ever be with me.. I'm scared cause he is partying it up tonight and the person he is going to bed with is not me.... I trust him with my life but my heart is worried as hell that if something happens I will break. I will be broken and shattered.
I don't think he really understands the level at which I love him and the level at which I would give for him. He says he knows he knows but really he is so blind. So blind by our arrangement that he can't see